Monday, March 14, 2005
without you life has no light
this world seems to be in darkness
without you life is silent
i feel as though i am deaf
without you i am blind and mute
without you i have no one to complain to
without you i have no direction in life
without you i am lost and scared
without you i am like a dear in the city
without you this life is nothing
without you this life is in silent darkness
without you i have lost everything
this is life wothout you
<<your departure made me realize how important you are to me>>
[writer's note:we never realise how much someone means to us until they are gone from our lives.ronan keating once sang, "if tommorow never comes".we never know when death will come knocking on our door so cherish each moment, each day like it is your first and last.]
Posted at 22:09 by prosefessor yanni
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
i observe your every move
you look happy from afar
yu seem to have forgotten
the promises you once made
the words you spoke to me
it's true what people say
you make empty promises
your words are those of deceit
dreams that were once shared
are simply left behind
you leave without a word
you didn't look back
not once...i was just ignored
you darted toa new destination
but despite all that i hope
that you're happy without me
this is the ending
this is the love that never bloomed
<<the conclusion of this book is set.
this love story is over.
goodbye.>>
[writer's note:this poem like the previous one was originally a piece i wrote in malay.translated it so that more could understand it.enjoy.]
Posted at 16:43 by prosefessor yanni
oodles and doodles
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
what is the use of waiting
what is the use of crying
what is the use when rice has turned to porridge
the future once so obvious
has become empty dreams
is it wrong if i want your love
is it wrong if my heart is screaming
is it wrong if i'm very sad
your sweet words
as though sugarcane is planted on your lips
where has it gone
where have you hidden it
only you know
why am i doing this
make myself even sadder
make myself suffer
i don't know the answer
as though it's locked away in my soul
i have no strength to do anything
i don't want to do anything
you leaving has
left adverse effects on me
but i am thankful
cause the events that did not kill me
has made me stronger
mentally and physically
may all my friends who have
been by my side
know how
indebted i am to them
<<without you my life is in darkness
like as though a shroud has befell on me>>
[writer's note:this was originally in malay but i thought y'll would be able to understand it better in english.anyway remember this-to know the truth, ask and don't simply judge by what you see]
Posted at 21:52 by prosefessor yanni
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Friday, February 04, 2005
want to tell you how i feel
but i can't seem to find the words
so listen to me if you will
listen to these unspoken words
saw your smile in the torrential rain
encouraging me through it
pulling me up the rocky terrain
helping me through the slippery bit
always thought you were a looker
but only admired from afar
never thought i would get this near
but now that i am on your par
i've developed an unexplained fear
i just don't want to
i am reluctant
to feel the way i do
will cause much tension
but to simply let go
tears me up inside
makes my tears flow
makes me want to hide
but i have to deny my heart
the satisfaction you bring
it's really hard
but it's better than despairing
never thought i would feel this way
about someone i barely know
but i have little or no say
over where cupid's arrows go...
<<confusing at times how life is.
but do not despair.cause
behind every cloud
is a silver lining.>>
[writer's note:like you may have heard time and time again,we may plan but it is god who decides.and obviously we have no say over what life throws at us but instead we have all the power to make it work for us]
Posted at 21:37 by prosefessor yanni
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
must you be the one
the one i cry for
the one i long for
the one who i love so
must you be the one
the one who kisses me
the one who hugs me
the one who i love so
must you be the one
the one i want
the one i miss
the one i love so
must you be the one
i want to spend time with
i want to talk and write to
the one i love so
must you be the one
who leaves me again but
this time not coming back
the one i love so
must you be the one
the one i'll love
the one i'll miss
until love and miss
i could no more
must you be the one
the one i love so
<<being in love
with someone
who is not
really hurts>>
[writer's note:what more do you want out of me?]
Posted at 13:44 by prosefessor yanni
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
sitting here
in this cold dark room
a blanket to keep warm
a torch to see with
sitting here
i'm reminded of a place
a place called home
where my family is
where my heart is
sitting here
alone and cold
i feel the need
the need to cry
sitting here
writing this
makes me feel such unease
makes me feel not at peace
sitting here
doubting you
is not something
i want to do
BUT...
sitting here
all alone
all i can do
is think of you
sitting here
all i'm capable off
is to think of you
and feel the way
that i really do
baby i love you...
<<in the heat of the day
you may doubt him/her
but at the end of the day
when you're about to sleep
the last thing on your mind
is how much you love him/her>>
[writer's note:the only poem i wrote in the picturesque sabah.wrote this after a long day and after i could no longer hold back the torrent of tears i had welling in my eyes.this camp was the one camp that made me really homwsick.but if i were to do it again,i definitely would.]
Posted at 19:37 by prosefessor yanni
oodles and doodles
Thursday, December 30, 2004
waiting here
looking around
chattering i hear
i'm on familiar ground
but who are these people
once familiar to me
what are their troubles
what could their problems be
they seem happy
to the lazy eye
they're so carefree
or does my eye lie
but who am i to question
what they're feeling inside
what sort of sensations
are they putting aside
for i myself don't know
don't understand the turmoil in me
don't know how to show
bottling up and letting it be
<<holding on to that little glimmer of hope
my patience is running low
how much longer do you think i can hold on?>>
[writer's note:it seems to me that all i seem to have been doing is WAIT...i guess it's retribution for having made others wait before.i don't know but my patience is really running low and my understanding is very poor now.*sigh* but what can i do but accept it and wait...]
Posted at 20:15 by prosefessor yanni
oodles and doodles
Monday, December 27, 2004
ask me just one more time
to be yours,for evermore
to share, for better or worse
and this time i won't let you go
tell me,just one more time
that you dream of me,and nothing else
that without me,you're incomplete
and this time, i won't be such a fool
hear me,just one more time
forget all that i said before
why?i do not know
but now,i really want you back
look back just one more time
see the smile fade away
see these eyes longing
wishing you loved me again
<<i've never wanted you more
dear angel of my heart
will you ever be mine?>>
[writer's note:when you've done something really horrible at the end of the day the one you still long for most is your dearest beloved.your guilty conscious always gets the better of you no matter what]
Posted at 10:05 by prosefessor yanni
oodles and doodles
Saturday, December 25, 2004
looking around...
what exactly do i see?
from under this frown.
everything subjected to scrutiny
but nothing registers
everything a big blur
unlike happy ever afters
i'm making you blur
i sit here...thinking
putting in effort
at my attempt in rhyming
effort rhymes with Manfred!
this does not makes sense
just like the rest of me
i know i am so dense
but just let things be
writing in pink ink
that smells like posies
there is no link
in this poem the colour of roses
<<a girl has got to live a little
have some fun be a little cheeky
and just have a jolly good time>>
[sometimes you just feel like not making sense so don't.let your naughtiness shine through.let your inner child have some fun for a day.i can promise you it'll be a very fun day]
Posted at 11:43 by prosefessor yanni
oodles and doodles
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
it seems that
all are rushing
to judge another
be it someone
you know or
even a total
stranger...
it doesn't matter
what you say is
what you say
people not happy
you also don't care
your judgements
aren't based on
what is inside
but merely the
outer surface
the one that
everyone sees
and thinks is
the person
but have you
not realized
that usually
your judgements
are unjust and harsh?
do you not think
before you speak?
this world is
filled to the brim
with judges...
trained
fat
thin
gorgeous
ugly
stupid
clever
it is filled
to the brim
with judges...
judging not on
what they know
but what people say
judging just because...
such a fair world isn't it?
<<to judge or not to judge>>
writer's note:don't ask me what is it with me and judges.maybe it's because i'm a debator.hmmz...miss debating asnd the judges comments really do help alot.i don't have much to say on this just that it is a very real situation in our everyday lives.
Posted at 21:00 by prosefessor yanni
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